Let me talk about my life economically.

In the economy, there is a few stages.

Prosperous

-> Growth

-> Stagnant (No growth)

-> Technical Recession

-> Recession

-> Depression

-> Great Depression.

and if u were to measure me on that scale, I suppose I'm at technical recession.

The part where I am going to lose control but still not really there yet.

actually...

The part tt you lose control is good.

Because u lose everything.

And because u lose everything, u are fresh.

U are able to start anew.

But, I'm at the ALMOST losing control part.

To make thing worse, I am not sure why I am starting to lose control of my life.

I can only feel it.

And tt feeling sux.

I'm not asking anyone for help!
I will not!

Because if I go around asking people "What is the key to getting my life back on track?"
Their responses will be "@, the key lies with you."

And so,

• I am not sure why I lost track
• What and where is the "key"
• What form of help I need

Thus, I am down here bloggin away. Hoping that something triggers the "right thing".

obtw, i don really know what I'm typing away now.

Enlightenment...
or. delightenment...

I have long accepted the fact that I am not a good leader.

But now, im starting to believe the fact that I am NEVER GONNA be a good leader.

in the past, I know I am not good. So I try, and I learn.

Hoping tt one day, this 'intalent' in me will turn 'talented' enough.

but dere comes a time when u realise...

"Talents are BORN with".

oh, 1 thing I am still proud of though, to keep my spirit up, I am good at serving.

I am REALLY proud for tt

Before I end, I just want to say this is not an emo post

And it is none of nobody's business

so hopefully, tmr when open my eyes, I can feel

HOPE

e last thing left when all else fail