Why so sad?!

When I thought the day was fine.
It is...
Until the clock struck 12.
and that is when bed of roses become blood red.

I had a bath.
I step into my room.
I saw letter from NUS.
I know that smells bad.
And it is.
Just an A4 but it is enough to makde my day.

Who will give me an oppurtunity?
My future seems so bleak.
Neither SMU or NTU have gotten in touch with me.
And I somehow doubt they will..........

Just an hour ago.
I told Kian Yong to be happy.
But moments later.
Happiness seems so far and so hard to grasp
Sry Kian Yong, as I say, words are easy. Very.
Just like NUS's words, just type a couple and paste into thousands then blast it out to candidates like me.

Desmond talk to me!
I have not much friend I can talk to.
Jelisa is probably aslp
My sister is studying for her exam tmr.
And I don't have girlfriend
So I am emoing
Haha! this part sounds funny.

K, let me pour my feelings out.
I feels sad.
And I don't feel like talking.
But I feel like sharing.
So how can I share without speaking. (I don't even want to text/type/write/wadeva)
But I feel like running! RUNNING FAST FOR L O N G L O O N G L O O O N G D I S T A N C E
But it's 2 am and I am very lazy

Mm... I think a night rest is what I need
and tmr morning, I will feel afresh
The only problem is, can I fall aslp?

Before I end, I want to just check.
Do I sound crazy???
If I am, just let me tell you guys "I am not crazy."
But crazy ppl will tell you "I am not crazy".
And that is what I am doing.
Yet, I have not other ways to convince you all I am not.
Alright wait, these sounds crazier...

Sumarise of my Feeling NOW!:
Complexity with a bit of worry
Hopefully, my ability to describe my emotions proves my sanity.
b4 I end. thx ky for the:
"Kaywhy says:
sry duno how to console you"
O points for effort, but its funny enuff