Growing Up

REC:

Relationship

Education

Career

Today, when I told my friend about me thinking of a 2nd Backpacking plan
She asked me about the above
And then it struck me
I am turning 21 in 3 months time.
And the above pretty much summarise the measurement of success for a 21 YO.

At the age of 20.7
I have NONE of the above
It's pretty scary

I have NEVER been in a relationship before
I got rejected by Bachelor of Psycology which I totally want to get into
I cannot start with a career because currently I am stuck with something called NS

Ar man,
Adulthood really sux

I remembered once sitting beside my Dad in his van
Started pondering about my future
I thought about me having a family
Having a wife and childrens
Having to take care of of my parents
Pay the billsssssss
Educate my kids
Save up
Handle all the Po-Si Jiu Fen
OMG!
things really is, not easy
anw, i put an abrupt stop to those thought because thinking abt all this is FEARFUL
more fearful than taking O's

Maybe doing it is simpler. Just Maybe.
Because at the end of the day, if you don't think about it and just go ahead with it
Things will fall into place
Just like a chinese saying "船到桥头自然直"

Have I told anyone
If I have had a brother
I would have gone backpacking around the world and never come back
But it still an "If"
So going back to reality
I'm gonna stick my ass into the whole "Family" thing & do the conventional way of 养家活口

Growing up is a Mishap
An irreversile process that is taxing yet compsulsory

Everyone can aspires to be someone when they grows up

But little can be themselves when they are a grown up

-Lim Bei